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I get a lot of compliments for my red bangs but because I shall need to join the working class in a few months (assuming that I don’t fuck up and not graduate), it’s high time I start getting used to looking like a “normal” person. So today my mom took me to Salon de Manila over at Salcedo Village to get my hair dyed blue-black. What I originally had in mind was to get my hair colored in such a way that it will look blue under natural light. It didn’t quite turn out that way though. Instead, I ended up with a very glossy, goth kind of black. I LOVE IT.

My mom suggested that I get blue streaks to go along with my hair but I said no because blue hair will probably scare the fuck out of potential employers. The career counsellor at school said there is no way in hell anyone would hire me if I keep my red bangs and my eyebrow piercing, unless I work in TV or something. I don’t think blue hair will make much of a difference in that respect.

I swear, Filipino society is one ginormous contradiction. Almost all Filipinos claim to be Catholic, and Catholics are supposed to like, love everyone because we’re all Jesus’ babies. Or something. But then people aren’t going to hire me just because I choose to look different from everyone else. Apparently looking “weird” means I am automatically less competent or qualified for whatever career I want. Haha I don’t know where this argument was going, I’m just terribly grouchy because I need nicotine in my system. Badly.

Oh, and just for the heck of it, I put on a circular barbell on my lip to see if I’d look good with an off-center lip piercing. Needless to say, I think I look effin hot.

I did not make any retarded New Year’s resolution to quit smoking but I’m going to quit smoking anyway, if not for good then perhaps for a few months. Why? Because breathing has become amazingly difficult during the past few days. I have no intentions of dying young or getting hospitalized for asthma with only six weeks of college left.

From at least a pack a day to nothing at all–it’s going to be a huge shock to my system. It’s my second day without cigarettes and I can feel the lack-of-nicotine-bitchiness kicking in already. The only thought in my mind right now is that if I don’t have a cigarette soon, I will scratch someone’s eyes out. Ugh. A friend of mine told me that Mercury sells nicotine gum, which I shall probably buy just so I don’t end up snapping at random people and losing friends out of sheer grouchiness.

I’m amazed at my willpower and self-control though. I went to Bo’s at Katipunan today to get some studying done but because the tables were so low inside, I sat out on the balcony where the smoking area is. I still had some cigarettes with me and despite the fact that my readings were amazingly long and difficult, I did not touch my pack at all. Yay. I hope I can keep this up. It’s going to be hard since 99% of my friends smoke and we usually hang out at smoking areas at school and coffee shops. Perhaps I’ll talk to them about that tomorrow.