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I did not make any retarded New Year’s resolution to quit smoking but I’m going to quit smoking anyway, if not for good then perhaps for a few months. Why? Because breathing has become amazingly difficult during the past few days. I have no intentions of dying young or getting hospitalized for asthma with only six weeks of college left.

From at least a pack a day to nothing at all–it’s going to be a huge shock to my system. It’s my second day without cigarettes and I can feel the lack-of-nicotine-bitchiness kicking in already. The only thought in my mind right now is that if I don’t have a cigarette soon, I will scratch someone’s eyes out. Ugh. A friend of mine told me that Mercury sells nicotine gum, which I shall probably buy just so I don’t end up snapping at random people and losing friends out of sheer grouchiness.

I’m amazed at my willpower and self-control though. I went to Bo’s at Katipunan today to get some studying done but because the tables were so low inside, I sat out on the balcony where the smoking area is. I still had some cigarettes with me and despite the fact that my readings were amazingly long and difficult, I did not touch my pack at all. Yay. I hope I can keep this up. It’s going to be hard since 99% of my friends smoke and we usually hang out at smoking areas at school and coffee shops. Perhaps I’ll talk to them about that tomorrow.