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Ever since I got over teenage angst and a huge crush on Silverchair frontman Daniel Johns, I never became a fangirl of any particular male music artist. That is, until I heard the song “Pure Morning” by Placebo a few weeks ago. The drumbeats, the lyrics, and the overall feel of the music made me stop, listen, and drool. It was undoubtedly the sexiest, most different song I have ever heard; trying to listen to music by other bands after “Pure Morning” felt so anti-climactic. But it was more than the song’s melody that kept me playing that song on repeat for the next hour. The androgynous voice crooning in my ear about a “friend with breasts and all the rest” had me swooning and completely hypnotized.

And so I became a Brian Molko fangirl.

Wikipedia defines a fangirl as a girl’s obsession with something, most commonly a male teen idol or an aspect of Japanese pop culture. Fangirl behaviour is believed to vary in intensity. This can range from a simple crush to the complete belief that the male celebrity is either madly in love with the fangirl, or will fall madly in love with the fangirl once he lays his eyes on her.

Since I heard “Pure Morning”, I’ve been downloading their songs like mad, joining Placebo communities, reading articles on the band, and watching videos on YouTube. I know that my degree of fangirl obsession isn’t all that great because I’m still too cheap to shell out 450 pesos for original Placebo CDs I’m not even sure if I will ever get to buying any of their albums because I know that I can download them for free. However, I would be willing to pay a lot of money just to see Brian Molko in person and watch Placebo live. You can rip Brian Molko’s voice off the Internet, but you can’t pirate seeing the object of your fangirlishness in the flesh.

I’m still not entirely sure why I’m so fascinated by Brian Molko. I’ve always prefered the bad boy, tough guy kind of look over androgeny or feminine features. What I do know is that there’s just something so mysterious about the dark-haired, pale-skinned Nancy Boy. And I’m really frustrated at how the Internet can tell you everything and nothing about him. A look at the archives of the official Placebo website will tell you that Brian Molko started cross-dressing and wearing make-up at the age of 11, that the 1997 Placebo tour left a “trail of blood and spunk” across the United States, and that he had to shred documents in college to earn money. But then, who is he really? Why is he the way he is right now? I guess I’ll never know.

On February 18, Placebo went to Thailand to play at a rock music festival. Naturally, I was all the way back in the Philippines, lamenting about how unfair it was that Brian Molko was so near yet so fucking far. Fat chance of Placebo ever coming to this politically-torn country but maybe someday I’ll get the opportunity to see them. I just hope it doesn’t happen when my obsession over Brian Molko passes.

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